When "x" Still Matters
x has a value that you are here. We get that pain. If you have begun to feel better mentally, then it is emotional pain that's persisting and hindering you from being yourself. By feeling better mentally, you agree that your head is okay with the bitter turnout. So, emotional pain is your heart still yearning and causing suffering that you are unable to stand. We understand.
Firstly you ought to get that you are more of your Guru's disciple than yourself. That way, Thy Holy Guru's plans for you are in force that yours may fail despite all the diligence and truthfulness from your end. Stating this, we aren't blaming Thy Guru or seeing your "x" undeserving of yourself. Uttering this, we would like to reinforce that your life is governed by the Divine and is bound towards the Divine that this loss of love is indeed to see you ready for much more beautiful facets of life.
Whether both of you agreed to part ways or the other broke you down moving away forever, you are in pain. This is unfathomable. The one to whom you wished to give everything of yourself, has denied you yourself. Accepted that this is too much to accept. But, get that this is for your good. Whom you thought was forever and unbreakable, has broken you proving that their love by itself is an illusion. You are being awakened by the Divine to seek itself, the Ultimate, the absolute reality.
This realisation could be bitter, but is so… true. Delve deeper and feel yourself untouched by all this illusion and grief. It is you, the real you. Stay with yourself and stay blessed. And when you come off this inward synching and know pain again, plunge into something HUGE enough to dissolve yourself, your woes. Meditate, pick out a pending personal task to finish off, play with your pet or feed the stray animals on the streets. Do something so… lovingly that your lost love fades off forever.
3 Comments
Gina
Beautiful words. Jai Sadhguru and Jai Bhairavi Devi
May 19, 2022-
Amita
Very beautifully expressed. A desire to share the love in one's heart will ultimately find expression. Just loosen yourself and see the magic of divine.
June 10, 2023
Durga Surendra
Wonderful